Well, it has been some time since I have last created a post. Thought I would just update.
The week of Mother's Day I thought long and hard about what this Mother's Day meant and what I should do. Do I send her a card? A gift? Nothing? I looked long and hard at cards. I thought if I could find the right card I would send one. I searched card after card and fnally I found the one I was going to send. It was generic but caring. Most cards are about how you raised me and things like that and that would not be appropriate. I didn't know what my brothers did for Mother's Day and so I wasn't sure if she was use to expecting any cards or anything. I just knew I needed to do this after so many missed years.
So, now what do I write in it? I have never had to think so long and hard about what to write ever! I basically said to her that I am so glad we have the opportunity to know each other and a few other things. I ended it with I have always thought about you every Mother's Day and wished her a wonderful day.
On Mother's Day Sunday I decided I should call her and just wish her a happy day and make sure she got the card. It was a pleasant convorsation and she let me know she got the card and thought it was lovely. She did something a little unexpected after a bit. She yelled out to my bdad and asked if he wanted to talk to me. He was cleaning out the camper and said no. I thought it was just because he was busy so I thought nothing of it. He came insode where she was and she again asked him if he wanted to talk. He was hesitant and that is when I realized that maybe he didn't want to know me. But, then she said he would like to talk to me. So I waited anxiously for the exchange of the phone. What do I say to him? What will he say to me? What will he sound like?
He got on the phone and said hello. It was a pleasant voice. One I thought might be a little deeper. We talked about a few things and after abit I realized now where I get my nervous chuckle from. BOTH of my bparents! They both laugh a lot when they talk and my bdad in particular, I think because of his nervousness. We did talke about the day they received the letter I sent them and he was the one who got to the letter first. He called my bmom at work and told her that they just got a letter from their daughter. It felt weird hearing him say that. Truely, I am their daughter but it was just a new feeling. He even talked a little about how it was a hard thing for them to do and that he wasn't sure about how to feel wen I contacted but then he saw how happy my bmom was and I think it changed how he felt about it. He said how having three boys has really made them long for a daughter and then I sent them a letter. I think it was as good for them that I contacted as it was for me.
I did send them a letter a while back, before I called them even, and have not gotten anything back yet. It was the one I decided to mention something about meeting them. I think they will be willing to meet at some point but I am not all the ready quite yet. We will see what happens with that in the future.
That is all that has been happening so far and I will surely be back to blog more about what goes on with my story.
